2017-03-19

我要變得更好。


以前很多時候我都會在想,如果我當時做了什麼什麼,我會不會處在一個更好的地方,成為更好的自己。身為perfectionist最大的優點,就是不會滿足於現狀要一直往前衝,但這也是perfectionist最大的缺點之一。Perfectionist生活很辛苦,內心世界也很複雜,對自己的期望高了,對別人的期望也就相對的高了。所以,以前我很常對自己感到失望,也對別人感到失望,週而復始,也就慢慢討厭自己、討厭身邊的人。當時的我慢慢遠離朋友,因為我總是覺得總有一天他們會讓我失望,這樣的話倒不如還沒親近過,沒有期望就沒有失望。 現在的我雖然還是會對自己和朋友感到小小的失望,但我已經學會坦然的接受我們一切的不完美。對於生活給予的失望,既然不能改變情況和環境,我就選擇改變我的心態。我的心房裡曾經是烏煙瘴氣的小巷,我現在正在努力地把它改造成一個能夠讓陽光透進來的溫馨小屋。


屋外有著乘風飛翔的蒲公英和薰衣草;小屋裡面有小小的花花草草,我愛看的書,愛喝的拿鐵咖啡,還有畫紙畫筆給我發揮想像。




小屋裡面還有寬敞的客廳,大大的落地窗,還有所有生命中珍惜我,我也珍惜的他們。我一直都很謹慎地篩選那些在我生命中重要的人,那間小屋容不下太多人。對於那些我很重視但不重視我的人,我現在已經慢慢地在放手。人生有太多重要的事情要做,有太多重要的人要好好對待,如果要一個人維持一段單方面的關係,那也太累了。剩下的光年,我要儲存力氣把我的愛給那些珍惜我的人。


我才22歲,人生還很長。生命才剛開始,理想才剛剛起飛,但願我好好使用我20幾歲的美好歲月。我要變得更好,我要努力鍛鍊身體,要好學不倦,要自強不息,雖然身邊的種種都在告訴我不用變得這麼好,但我就是要變成the best version of myself。



給曾經消極的我說句話:樂觀點吧!雖然樂觀並不能幫助你脫離困境,但樂觀所帶來的正能量一定會讓宇宙裡冥冥中的力量幫助你走出迷宮。上帝是仁愛的,祂給你的難題,祂相信你能夠完成。生活有起有落,我們都載浮載沉,但只要靠著上帝,凡事都會變好的。奮鬥吧艾比蓋兒!

2017-03-09

Dandioy's Doodle | It’s been awhile... 好久不見

✨It’s been awhile...✨ 

{好久不見} 




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好久不見,大家還好嗎? 

我在我生日的前一晚寫下了一列“人生21年教我的事”的清單,想和大家分享: 

一)雖然快樂的瞬間總是短暫,但悲傷的雷雨也不會長久。 

二)人生的功課不需要自己費心佈置,上帝會在契合的時機給你安排。 

三)每個在你人生中徘徊的人都有它背後的意義,他們都有可能是你故事裡的伏筆。 

四)只要積極向上,把一成不變的生活過得簡單卻燦爛,也是一種對自己浪漫的方式啊。 

五)想要的東西自己去爭取,想要的經歷自己去體驗。 

六)把自己照顧好,就是對家人們最好的交代。 

不知道有哪一項讓你們產生共鳴的呢?( ~'ω’)~ 

最近生活有點枯燥乏悶,但是回顧這個清單後,我就覺得比較振作了,希望這些能夠激勵到你們。 

話說!38婦女節快樂喔!(在俄羅斯婦女節蠻重要的所以有放一天假,我才有時間PO這篇吶(〒︿〒)) 


Heyyyyyy. It’s been awhile since I’ve posted here. 

So I wrote down a list of things life has taught me the night before my 22nd birthday just to do a little bit of self-reflection and I thought it would be a great idea to share it to you guys. 

  1. Happy moments are always short, but sad times don’t last either. 
  2. God will teach us lessons through sorrow. 
  3. Everyone comes into your life for a reason. 
  4. Live life fiercely beautiful is one of the ways to be romantic with yourself. 
  5. If you want it, go get it. 
  6. Taking care of yourself is the best thing you can do for your family. 

(I wrote them originally in Mandarin so some meanings might get lost in translation.) 

Life has been exhausting lately. I hope these encourage you in some sort of ways lol. 

btw Happy Women’s Day! :) 

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2017-03-02

Dandioy's Diary | Of mental struggles and responsibilities (020317)

It has been a while since I have written a diary entry, but here it is, unfortunately it is a sad one.




Another thing that happened to me this week is that I was given a huge responsibility in a committee. I promised to take that obligation even though I knew that with this responsibility I will have no free time for myself. I have no peace in my heart for almost a week. With that responsibility, I would not be able to write my blog anymore or even draw for my facebook page. So I wrote a long message to the leader and declined the position. The moment I sent the message, I immediately felt a sense of relief in my heart. I've learnt how important it is to say no to things. Say no to emotionally draining people, say no to people who only want to use you, say no to people who are making you do things that you don't need to do. Just fxxking say no.

With all those emotions and mental struggles, I felt ill and weak today during Physiology lecture, so I skipped Microbiology class. I skipped my workout today too. And I ate half a package of my favourite Ritter Sport dark chocolate. AND I FEEL AWESOME. Rest is good. Being able to write a diary entry is good. Being able to express how I feel is good. Making time for myself is good.

ANOTHER thing that I have learnt is that being a Christian, it is totally fine to say that you're not fine. I just dislike it whenever people preach that being a Christian means that our life will just be sunshines and rainbows and whenever you feel sad you shouldn't express it because it means you're somehow not being grateful to God. Because the truth is, we have tough days too and I believe God wants us to be honest with our own emotions and feelings instead of masking it with the fake perfect image that all Christians live happily ever after. It is simply not true.

Okay, enough ramblings for today. Hopefully my next diary entry will be a happy one! :')
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